One of THOSE days...

That describes yesterday! Kori got me up at 3am with tummy woes. She came in bed with Jason and I and tossed and turned and sighed until about 6am before she finally fell back asleep. She stayed home from school and was better by afternoon. She was just nauseous and not feeling great, no puking thank goodness. Kamryn and Alexis were whiney, clinging crying messes all day. Kamryn had two temper tantrums over a book that she kept wanting to take from anyone who had it but her. She didn't want it when it wasn't being played with but the minute that someone else touched it, be prepared for a complete meltdown. **Sigh** Alexis and Kamryn are both teething and I believe that is the root of all the problems.

I can handle fussy kids, don't get me wrong. But add to the fact that I was tired, had a splitting headache, that only made things worse. Then Kori decided she should pester the little ones and that only made things even more awful. Jason had off-duty from 4:30-7:30 and then headed off to his regular overnight shift, so it was just the girls and I. It was one of those nights where I just sat and watched the clock waiting for bedtime. I hate when I have those days. They make me feel like the worse mom on the planet. I hate being "that mom" but it happens. After talking to my mom for a bit, a good cry and a talk with Jason on the phone before bed, I was feeling somewhat better. I fell asleep repeating my "life saving mantra" tomorrow will be better, tomorrow will be better, tomorrow will be better...over and over. That simple chant keeps me going. It gives me hope. That and all the praying I do when I feel a bit overwhelmed. Somedays everything is just an effort to get done. Yesterday was that day. I feel a bit beaten and down, but I put faith in the fact that God chose me to be the mother of these wonderful girls for a reason and I have to keep plugging along, even on the days that's not so easy. I am probably a little harder on myself that I should be, but that's just me.

The whole evening yesterday I had a pit of anxiety in my chest just nagging at me. Today thankfully it's gone and it was a much better day. I even lost track of time and realized it was time to put the kiddos to bed...what a difference a day makes.

Kori was feeling better today and headed off to school. She was missed by her friends and Ms. Phillips so that made her feel good. Her new haircut was noticed too. It really does fit her sassy/spunky personality.

I made doubled hand battered chicken fried steaks tonight, mashed potatoes and gravy, corn and biscuits for dinner. It was yummy! Jason was in heaven as it's one of his favorite meals. It makes me feel good to put a nice dinner on the table for my family. Especially following a day like yesterday where I had a hard time finding one good thing to mention about the whole darn day.

The girls are talking so much more! It's a riot! Morgan babbles a lot. She concentrates very hard on what she is telling you...now if I only knew what she was saying. I just make her feel like I get what she's told me and I think it's as important as she does. She is the little mommy of the trio. If one of the others is crying she will try and soothe them in any way possible. Today Alexis was upset and Morgan gave her the magna-doodle in an attempt to distract her and make her feel better. She will often go find the blanket Alexis carries around or Kam's cloth diaper (lovey) that she totes around if they are upset and brings it to them. It melts my heart! She was so good yesterday that I wanted to take her and lock her and I in my bedroom for the rest of the night to hide from the "others".

Kamryn was back to her normal silly self today. No tantrums or screaming fits. Thank goodness!

Alexis was back to freely handing out her many wonderful hugs. She loves to have the ABC's sung to her. She says "A, B" over and over and then sways back and forth. It's an absolute kill.

After whining to Jason last night I took a deep breath and told him that no matter how bad the day had been I wouldn't change one single thing. I am lucky and blessed and I must NEVER forget that...no matter if I feel like running screaming from this house some days.

I havent' mentioned it in a while but I will now. I'M SICK OF THE NIGHT SHIFT JASON IS ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM OVER, OVER, OVER IT!!!!!! Okay, I feel better now. It will be one year in February since he put his transfer into the day shift. Now if one of those fossils would move on and make some room for him. :-) Oh a girl can dream huh????

All of that being said, I must bid adieu! I am going to recollect some sanity tonight and do a little reading for 1/2 and hour or so before bed!